Brian Welch’s Testimony (It’s Worth Retelling)

by Jessica Thomas on April 28, 2012

Isn’t it odd how some moments just stick out in your memory? Usually those moments are attached to something significant, a moment of insight, personal change, or growth.

So why do I remember the first time I heard a Korn song? I mean *really* heard one of their songs? I can’t claim to know the exact year, but I’m going to say it was around 1998. My sister, ex-bro-in-law, husband and myself were sitting in the basement of ex’s parents’ house on an Indiana summer’s eve. (It might have been spring, winter, or fall. I dunno. Not the point.) The radio was playing. I was drinking Coca-Cola from the can. (Or was it Pepsi?)

Actually, the pop may be the significant part of this memory. I’d given up pop (mostly) six years prior, so the fact that I drank not one, but two cans of Coke that evening was out of the ordinary. The significant stomach ache I got afterwards taught me something important: the human body is not meant to consume soda pop.

While sipping said beverage, a song came on the radio. It was a bit dark. Heavy on the bass. Catchy rap-like vocals.

Me: “Who’s this?”

Hubby: “Korn.”

Me: “Hmm.”

Hubby: “Why? Do you like it?”

Me: “Um. Kinda.”

Hubby: *laughing*

Proof that there is more than corn in Indiana. (Hint: There’s also Korn.)

Awwwww. Bad joke.

We ended up buying Korn’s Follow the Leader album. I’m sure we owned that one anyway, because I remember the cover.

Funny. The other day, I checked our iTunes to see if Korn was in there. Nope. They didn’t make it to the digital age. At least not in my household. We no doubt got rid of the Korn album around the same time we pitched Marilyn Manson’s “Anti-Christ Superstar”. Really, I’m surprised that one ever made it into my household.

I’m not perfect, but I try to remember that we are all God’s children and treat people respectfully because of it. I know, deep down, no one is truly a d-bag, but rather it’s our actions that are d-baggish. And Marilyn Manson’s actions (at least in those days) were about as d-baggish as they come. Who thinks it’s cool to prance around stage half-naked wearing nothing but a long rubber phallus attached to a speedo? Dude. In your dreams, by the way. Yet I was stupid enough to later buy his album. How d-baggish of me.

As I was saying, Korn’s music didn’t last very long in my repertoire. I can only listen to hopeless angst for so long before I become really annoyed. Years later when I heard one of the Korn members had become a Christian, I was a bit surprised, but also very happy to hear it. I didn’t think about it much until the other day, when (who knows why) I came across Brian “Head” Welch’s testimony. I watched his interview on CBN and he closed with some of the most cleansing and refreshing words I’ve heard in a long time:

“He put me on Earth to have fellowship and intimacy with Him,” Brian says. “And I’m going to spend as much time I can possibly spend getting to know him everyday. I don’t want to waste any time. I’ve wasted enough time. That’s what I’m put on Earth to do. Be intimate with God. Get to know Him as much as I can. Let Him fill me with His spirit so He can do the work by bringing people into the Kingdom.”

As one who tends to think I have to do God’s work for Him, Welch’s words really hit home for me.

Curious as to whether Welch was still writing music, I did a search of the interwebs. Turns out he is, and interestingly, it’s still pretty hardcore. Some might even say it sounds like “satan’s music”.

Despite being a born again Christian with an amazing testimony, he received some grief about the graphic nature of the above video, to the point where certain retailers (I’m assuming Christian) pulled it off the shelves.

I have received a handful of messages from some conservative people complaining about the sex and drug references in my new music video for FLUSH; and, I have recently learned that some select retailers are pulling my CD from their shelves because of my music video’s content. So, I wanted to give an explanation of what the video means to me; and to address those select retailers that are pulling the CD from their shelves:

“The video for FLUSH is about Crystal Meth addiction and the crazy things anyone addicted to Meth will do while they’re high or to get their fix. Everything the models were doing in the video is what I was wrapped up in while I was addicted to Meth. The video is a very realistic look at the addiction and where it will lead you if you get hooked. I understand the images of the models may be too much for some people, but honestly, I was just trying to be real with what happened in my life and show where I was, as well as where I am at now.

To be honest, I really can’t listen to hardcore metal anymore. (Or whatever the kiddos call it these days.) I listened to a little bit of Welch’s newer stuff and it’s not my cup of tea. I found myself wondering why his sound hasn’t lightened up of its own accord in response to his profound spiritual change. Then I thought, he’s not talking to me. He’s talking to people who are on the same destructive path he was on. Who might vomit listening to KLOVE because it’s too far away from their current reality–so far away it sounds like a lie to them. Those types would be more inclined to listen to something by Welch. And who knows. They might listen to the lyrics.

I doubt the fact that Brian Welch’s music was taken off some Christian shelves made much of an impact on his ministry. I’m pretty sure that’s not his target audience.

Anyway, best wishes and prayers go to Brian Welch. What a wonderful testimony.

{ 9 comments… read them below or add one }

Patrick Todoroff April 30, 2012 at 5:10 am

Good post. BW’s testimony is up on, if you’re interested.

Have a good week.


Jessica Thomas April 30, 2012 at 5:58 pm

Thanks Patrick. I ran across that site in my searches. I’m thinking about doing the 22 day challenge.


Nicole April 30, 2012 at 10:11 am

Thanks for this, Jess. Cool post.


Jessica Thomas April 30, 2012 at 6:00 pm

Thanks for stopping by Nicole. I’m glad he found his way.


Brenda Anderson May 1, 2012 at 6:01 am

My teen daughter has been following him for quite a while. I love his testimony (but can’t listen to him) and highly recommend his autobiography, Save Me From Myself. A second member of Korn, Fieldy, also has a wonderful testimony.


Jessica Thomas May 1, 2012 at 6:22 pm

His music definitely isn’t for everyone, but I find it inspiring, in an odd way, that he didn’t totally revamp his sound and start churning out worship songs.

I’ll have to check out his book.


Jill May 2, 2012 at 4:00 pm

I can’t listen to metal, either, but I thank God for Welch’s testimony. I have to block out a lot of chaos already–that’s why I can’t listen to metal. I believe Dave Mustaine from Megadeth also has a great testimony. But again, I can’t listen to his style of music, and am thankful these men can reach an audience that does appreciate the mood.


Jessica Thomas May 2, 2012 at 8:03 pm

With young kids in the house I find I must avoid all other unnecessary and unpleasant noises.


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